football blues

Today was the end of another football season. It is funny how as soon as your team is knocked out then it is just over. Just like that! Of course everyone likes to watch the super bowl but that is because it is an excuse for a party. Let's face it.. you don't care who wins unless it is your team playing or you bet some money on it. Everyone coaches from the couch all season and then when it's over the discussion continues about whichever losers should be fired. Well my approach is that I got to watch my team play alot longer than some did so that must mean we don't suck too bad and the coaches must be doing something right.
Here's to next year! All the sofa side coaches can bitch about bad calls (you know they are always out to get us) and decide the fate of more overpaid players that shouldn't miss field goals. Here's an idea...you can watch nascar to pass the time until baseball season starts. After that you will appreciate your shitty team and it's shitty coaching and shitty players, I promise!

Thankfulness

I am thankful for the people I have in my life and just as thankful for the ones who aren't in my life. This was a facebook post today. How true it is! So true that I had to start with a quote of the day! Think about how many people you may have cried over that walked out of your life. I bet later you thought "Thank God that one is gone." Funny how that happens. It makes me think how many times my own kids will go through this with boyfriends/ girlfriends and how many times I will say.. " It will be alright" and "it wasn't meant to be". I think what we really will mean is " I knew that kid was no good" but they have to learn on their own. I am fortunate to have many long term friends but let's just say I have been known to make a bad choice now and then still. Those are the ones you get rid of in a hurry. It is always funny that these are the ones I introduce to my clan and they wish I wouldn't have brought them that new friend. Here comes Stacy with a new "Crazy" for us. Remember I am good at crazy. When I come to my senses they are saying "Thank God that one is gone" and " I knew that one was no good". If we would all just listen then we wouldn't have anyone to be thankful that they are gone. The moral of this post is... I am not going to waste one more minute thinking about the assholes I am thankful to not have in my life but only focus on the ones I want to be there! (much thanks to the many who love me.)

The list

I actually was going to start this blog with a rant but it is funny how one thing can change your day. When I clicked on my blogger today I decided to read a blog I follow http://www.kellehampton.com/ before I wrote mine. This is a mom of a child with DS. She is raising money for DS awareness. Well I donated and passed it along on facebook and then decided my rant didn't matter so much.

I am the kind of person always looking for the approval of others. This may sound strange to some of you since I do make some bold moves and seem very strong. It is all a lie. Today if I speak honestly then here is my list:
I want to stay home with my kids but have the money of a working mom.
I want my mother to apologize and be a mother to me.
I want my oldest son and I to have a better relationship.
I want my grandmother back.
I want my grandfather to get his mind back.
Ok, so all said.. none of this will happen so I am not felling sorry for myself. Instead I did something positive and donated to the DS foundation and then I felt good again.
I did forget one more thing I want.. 1 more bathroom. The kids overflowed one of them last night and that was a treat as we were down one shitter!

Epiphany

I really thought that if I left my Christmas decorations up til the Epiphany that this year may actually be a good one. I am not a supersticious person but at this point I will try anything. Everytime someone is taking down their decorations and tree I repeat the same thing about leaving them in hopes of a better year. Well let's just say that I may as well take them down today because 2012 sucks already. My dog passed away yesterday. Nothing makes you feel like an adult more than holding your pup as they take their last breath and then telling your children they are gone. Oh and let's not forget that I am only in the knock down phase of building and already going over budget because part of my house has a foundation isuue. I am going to hold my head high and chalk this all up to just a shitty January. I just know it will not stay this way because dammit the Christmas stuff IS NOT coming down til after the Epiphany and the witch is neatly decorated for Christmas and then will be decorated for Valentines day because she is Charlotte's friend! Remember her..http://denamom.blogspot.com/#!/2011/10/witches.html
Thought of the day: Sometimes we like to use our hearts instead of our heads. This time my head will rule.. NO kids we are not getting another dog. Just like the cat and the dog that passed, I don't need another pet right now. Truly how many kids actually help with their pets?